i'm not sure why...
but i took my kids to see "matt's spot."
i miss him and the kids have been asking about him.
so we went - kind of spontaneously.
i told the kids that matt wasn't there... because he is with jesus now.
but "his box" was buried and we could go there
to remember him...
and bring him presents if we'd like.
for some reason that made sense to their little heads and
they really liked the idea of bringing him a present.
(maybe we'll paint rocks.)
it felt right to feel the weight of the sadness for a few minutes
and to remember my little crew the way it was.