is blogging out?

it's so weird...
one day you just 
the internal 
your $800 Nikon dies.
and then a year flies by.
to be honest,
i'm not sure how to just pick up after a year.
 point form?
also, i'm not sure if i know how to communicate without emoticons.
* kids are amazing.  charlee is almost 8, bodhi is 6 and jane is almost 5.
i don't have babies anymore.
they are big kids.
all three of them are bright, 
fiercely independent and 
insanely creative
(emphasis on insanely).
i mean. just look at them. 

fact: i could write a book with the things that come out bo's mouth.
for example, 
back in january gary and i began contemplating trying to have another baby.
we thought very seriously on the matter and 
felt it was important to include the kids in the conversation.
of course they wanted the same thing we did,
another chance
the only one i was concerned about was bodhi.  
he took the loss of his "brothers"
so hard.
i remember lying in bed with him and saying,
"you know, bud, if momma get's pregnant again 
there is a good chance
it could be a girl."
to which he replied ever so confidently, 
"no momma.  two. boys."

* two boys, coming september 23, 2014.
last week we hit the 23 week mark.
both boys look beautiful. 
absolutely no sign of TTTS to date. 
* more about this later. hopefully or maybe...

*pregnancy hair is so so awesome. 
compression tights in summer are so so not. 
the kids refer to them as my
"depression tights,"
it cracks me up. 


  1. Carleigh, I love hearing your thoughts and seeing the glimpses into your life that you so generously share. They are a great source of encouragement. You journey well through life and do it with wisdom... I've gleaned from it and have used something's you've taught your kids in my own parenting... And it has impacted my children beneficially and beautifully. Thank you... Praising God with you at this amazing news!... What !!?! Much love, all the way from here in Australia...

  2. Thank you for writing again, Carleigh A. You are a creative, thoughtful, honest, unique, believable soul. Sounds like God said "yes" to Bodhi's sincere (if not audible) prayer.

  3. There is something magical about a 6 year olds prayers. When I was 6 I too prayed for younger brothers (3 to be precise) following several heartaches. My youngest brother is now 19.
    Thank you for again sharing your poetic words and images.

  4. lovely.. I think the second blogging becomes something you have to do.. its not fun.. I also blame instagram.. quick glances and quotes and then to share the story later kind of seems like over kill? IMO any who. haha..

    BUT.. your writing is so fluent and magical and gives me that much more of a head nod while I read it..